Draupadi ! Don't You Feel lucky .. ???

Years and Centuries Ago , There was this lady. Brave like Fire, Pure as holy , molested and teased in hall full of men. Men who were her Husband , In Laws , Uncles , Father Like Figures. She was made feel embarrassed and so degraded. A Woman was snatched and beaten , a man pulled her with her long flowy hair, woman who was attempted to rip off naked in that hall , full of Cowards as she said. But she was saved. She was provided with Clothes to save her Dignity. Some says it Was done by Lord itself, some say it was Dharma , some says it was her own power and holy powers that saved her. Whosoever did , but she was saved.
She the Character of Epic Mahabharata. Lady that has created History.

Draupadi the Epitome of Tolerance, Statue of unfair and torture that a woman goes through.
When we mention her , our eyes fill with Fear and Anger. We have heard many people say , Even in times of Lord himself a lady was not Safe. Period

Yes !! This is what we are talking about. Being Safe !

UP, MP , Maharashtra , Rajasthan. We read it everywhere. We hear it everywhere.
Rape, Balatkar , Inhuman Crime , Not Tolerable Offense.

A girl takes bus with her friend , and it turns out to be private bus full of lusty man, who tease girl , when her friend objects, he is beaten up. She fights back but she is Raped. Gang Raped by those monsters. beaten up brutally. Unimaginable objects inserted in her Private Parts. Gross as it sounds. and she and her friend are thrown on road , both half conscious and she almost naked. After day or two, nation shouts and screams for her Justice. She being named Nirbhaya [one who is above fear or one who does not fear] by Media and People.  She dies the battle with Death.

Another Girl is raped in isolated mill, where she is capturing photographs of the place, with her colleague. as a Work allotted to them. Some local guys, in the name of some local authority gang rapes her. She reports. They are Caught. They are Punished. She Lives [Thank God ! ]

And now we have series of Cases of Rapes on News Channels.
Two sisters are gang raped in village , killed, and hanged on a tree. Another one is raped, forcefully made drink Acid , and her face being scattered with Acid .
Police, Government we blame it all. and well they prove things in favor of those blaming.

People demand Capital Punishment, Some demand brutal death , but can any Law, and Punishment change the mindset of these Evil Minds ??
My Question is to us , the people who sit sticking our eyes to TV, who shows Pity on those poor girl, and then forget the whole issue, till the time some news channel hows cover story on it, or some other case popping out.
Aren't we to be blamed as well? Why we have to wait for Something to happen, why we are looking for Solutions and not Preventions.

Why we are not making every person we can aware, how inhuman it is? Why Girls are not being taught how to defend themselves in Situations like this. Why Mindset of These people cannot be changed, with proper upbringing, and igniting sensitivity in their heart.

All these why remains unchanged. 

Every Thing remains as it is. 

Today it was her. 

Tomorrow it Would be Me , 

Or Your Friend , Your sister 

or Maybe You !! 

All i can say is , Dear Brave Lady Draupadi !! 

Don't You feel Lucky, You were born then and Not NOW !!! 

Happy 67th Indian Independence Day !! Really ??

67th Independence Day 

Why Celebrate !!

We live in country where people still discriminate others on the basis of caste and religion ,
Where girls [read girls and guys] are brutally getting raped and killed everyday ,
where government and politics is about money not the country or people, 
where every other person is corrupt from any official authority to common man , from all the scams to not buying trains ticket costing hardly 4 or 5 , 
where our soldiers and police spend [ read waste] their precious life , which goes in vain with nothing but all news channels portraying their story , 
where only those who are having power are safe and secure , 
where people who wanted to live simple non corrupt life were suppressed and enforced into system that is not democratic but bribe-rian , 
where even food of poor people and that of school children is a big deal for these officials to properly provide ,
where we have Independence celebration every year only to find Flags to be on Road Covered with mud and dirty water

No i don't say i Hate this Country , I Love My India , But where is freedom , are we Independent yet !!! 
I Don't say Government is to be blamed neither i say they aren't , 
All i say is We can make a change , but only if we wish , 
Everyone wants to compliant , but no one wants to be the part of Change .., 
Change is not about being leader and leading the country , 
it is about smaller things and within , 

Can't we Stop Littering , Value our Country and its Resources , 
Can't we Respect Our Elders and Females , why rob , why kill , why rape !!
Can't we stop Offering Bribe , and if we are forced to pay some, Can't we rise voice against it ,, 
Can't we stop blaming others and start taking care of things ,, 

No am not Patriotic but i wish to live simple and free life in my country , 
It is not just a dream but right of Each and Every Citizen ,, 

Let's Make Change Within , 
At least In Respect of all those Freedom Fighter who gave their life ,, 
without thinking about families , Career , 
They cared about Mother Land , Our Country , 
They Fought For us ,, 
Can't we Fight for Us , For Generations to Come !! ??? 

So whatever it is ,, 
Happy Independence Day ,,

Let's Be The Change That We Wish To See : Hope .................

With Everything Have Nothing ... !!! [lonely housewife]

With Everything ,,,, Have Nothing ,......!!!!!!!

Lonely Road !! Lonely Life !!

 There is a hole in my heart that no one can fill, 
it seems like  i was born to make everyone happy , 
bring the best out of them , give give and give , 
cry the pain inside , let nothing come outside,
see the people cheer , see the children smile ,
colors and life , live and smile , 
walk out everyday , say hello to the world , 
let the world and life be in my arms clutched,
laugh loud and smile as if nothing wrong , 
and people say , "oh you're so strong" !!
i smile ,, but heart inside screams and cries ,, 

all i can do is sit and things that might have happened 

only when i come back home ,, 
only when am coming to myself ,, 
i know i know what is true,, 
the pain rise and i need to cry ,,, 
the man who loves me looks up to me , 
"hey whats wrong baby", the embrace weakens me !!
and that's when my baby comes running ,
"Mommy i missed you , where have you been"
the pain fades but heart skips in pain that is deep ,, 
i take her in my arms , "mommy is here baby girl"
lets eat and get back to your homework , 
the man beside me puts his arm on shoulder , 
says its okay dont loose now ,, 

we finish our food, and i sing to my baby ,, 
she sleeps in my lap , and i feel so clingy , 
i put her on her bed , stand in the balcony 
why is it has to be ,, why is it has to be ,, 
the man comes and kiss me lightly ,, 
dont think much ,, you need sleep , 
yes i nod ,, yes i need and you need it to ,, 
lights off ,, he makes me sleep ,, 
with his cuddles and kisses,, 
he sleeps by my side only ,, 
to make me realize am not lonely ,, 

he is sound asleep ,, and its past midnight ,, 
i lie awake , place seems so strange , 
everything was fine , but there was something aahhh 
time that my companion Mr. Pain arrives ,
tears flows ,, and throats aches , 
this is so painful , am i passing out 
i cry cry and cry ,, heart aches ,, 
the missing part in me ,, screams 
everything stops , but time keeps running ,
i fall asleep with tears in my eyes ,, 
with pain in my heart , 

"honey you are late , 
drop baby girl to her school too"
hand them their belongings ,, 
in the race with the time ,, 
kiss them good byee ,, and say come home soon ,, 
smile on my face ,, tears in my eyes ,, 
this is the life , this is the life :) 

may be world won't understand and 
somehow i don't care ,, 
lets get back to the work , 
i have family to look for , 
tear plot itself on my cheek again ,, 
and i smile ,,, to myself ,, 
with everything have nothing ,, 
this is My Life ........... !!!!!! 

This Is My Life ......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are Marriages so mandatory ? more than the life of one ??

She was not very young but not old too. she was 45, but if you look at her she looks nowhere near it !!! bright eyes, unique persona, that confidence in her eyes , she seems a warrior to me , a warrior fighting with entire world !!!!! and world was indeed against her !!!! 

it was just another day and as usual a boring day of my life , i step out of home in hopes of little different day ! i am going to meet this friend of mine, who is a true sweetheart and most caring friend of mine, but has this one habit which is so annoying to me , whatever she talks or does she has to link it up to marriage and me being pretty anti marriage its real irritating !! i mean common MARRIAGE the so called Universal Institution is not the end of life ... [anyways , let me get back to story ---- as i said am anti marriage i start anywhere with my obsession against marriage , excuse me for that] with that i was really in weird state of mind, that i'll have to get myself tucked in silly argument about marriage huh !! 

we are suppose to meet at local bus stop and then to some shop to hog like jerks , i reach early as usual , and there is this lady waiting on the bus stop , i stab my feet with impatience and anger rushing through my veins , she turns to me and smiles, i smile back . i am not generally into those short sweet connections with people, but when it comes to few people who intrigues me i cant help smiling , her eyes had something that made me stare at her ,[ now that was weird, i was just 20 year old female and was caught in situation where was staring at this female may be in her late thirties.] phone rings and i take breath of relief , it was my friend i knew what she would say ! sigh ! 
"hey am so sorry, am running late," 
expected !! 
"as usual miss, so how much am suppose to wait?" 
not less than 20 minutes for sure ,, 
" not much yaar , you know i am just cooking and then i will just feed up the dog and will leave in few minutes" 
this was irritating ,, 
"why dont you give me proper timings , u could have called me late if u had work! ?" 
she now replies with excitement ,, 
"forgive me dear, u see am just training myself to be a nice wife and take care of family" 
that was it 
"ohh please ,,, dont start with that marriage obsession again , its so annoying okay, marriage marriage marriage why dont u just get yourself married right away" 
"Sorry dear ,, am sorry ,, "
what sense does it make apologizing anyways !!!
"Its okay ,, u just put the phone down, continue preparing yourself for marriage and i shall be waiting like an idiot for next hour for sure ,,, "
she speaks with sound that wanted to cry  "I am sorry dear. i'll make it fast"
"just put the phone down ,, and yes Go To Hell ,, ohh no ,, Go Get Married huh !!! "
hung up ,, that was it ,, she made my blood pressure rise in a span , how can be people so foolish and desperate !!! ahh , i hope i hope i just dont cry with anger , i hate when tear takes over anger !!!!!! 

"you there little girl ,, !!!! seem to hate marriages too much ? take it easy , sit " smiles and says that female who was also waiting on bus stop says breaking all the silence after that call and frustration 
"ummm ... !!!! no i am fine thanks ,, i am sorry if i was too loud"  i try to smile 
" no dont worry about that   ,,, tell me what is it that makes you hate marriages so much ? i can really make sense of it from the way you spoke ,, its none of my business but i am really curious , you are just a small girl may be in college years then what is it" 
her voice was indeed soothing , i hated talking about this but she was not talking like others who just took stand against me without even listening to me , she actually wanted to know why !!!! hmmmm let me just speak up , anyways my anger will kill me if i dont . 
" Its not that i hate it am just pretty against it" 
"and may i know , why is that little miss? " smiles she 
"ummmm its hard to explain as even i dont know clearly , its not like i dont like marriages and having person to live great life with but you know its so blown out of proportion , marriages has become compulsory ,, and its like acceptance of your status from society, you know there is no respect for each other there is just sense of doing ritual ,, duty and all for status !!! its annoying" 
may be i had spoke too much but that lady had look in her eyes , which was little surprised but not so shocking , she speaks with more calming voice now , " how old are you ? 20 - 21 ? "  head nod "20" "Hmmmmm !!!" she continues " see you are too young an i dont know how these thoughts have captured you, but i had same thinking once , but it all changes with time " she smiles ,, but this time there wasnt spark in her eyes . 
" nooo !!!! see this is what i dont want , i know i'll be getting married and living life , but that is not the life i want , i want to be single not totally alone though , want to adopt kid an earn and live , no responsibilities n all trapped in what i dont want to be " no no dont cry control on self girl you have to !!!!
" hmmmm , i was 22 and i was heartbroken" starts she with little more intensity in her voice " i had made myself so strong to never fall for love again , and develop this thinking of staying alone " 
that was quite sad " ohhh hmmm , i understand that, that is really sad ,, and closing self in shell after all this is so obvious but my thinking has no such reasons really "

she speaks now ,,with more pain ,, " hmm i know , but thing is i just want to tell you what you thinking is not wrong ,, but you know staying alone in this world is too difficult much more difficult than you have ever imagined," i wanted to respond but she was so intense i wanted to listen to her .. !!!! " i was 22 as i said and i was so keen on living alone life on my own terms, my father was finding suitable partner for me , i forced him to let me just live the way i wanted ,, no marriage he agreed ,, he felt that is all he could do as my mother was missing from my life , he wanted to do as much as he could , my dad was strong support ,, i turned 30 and i was single , people started making these talks and started torturing my father with all those emotional sayings, he was thank god man who never cared for society , it hurt me though !! and he died when i was 31 ,, wherever i go people talks nasty , the reason as they say for me not getting married is cause i have not a great character , i am slut or a bitch or even something worse than that !!! i am 45 now ,, and still fighting that am not a bitch or slut but just a woman who wants to live alone ,, it doesnt seem to work u see , it never will " 

i was stunned ,, before i could respond i saw bus approaching ,, and she stood up ,, " just know you are right ,, but its not easy ,, its just not easy ,, " she smiles ,, " have a good life and start loving it if u can marriages are bad but they give u status in society ,, byeee take care , God bless you" 

she rose up and walked in the bus ,, turned back and smiled ,, 

what was that ,,, was that really difficult ,, this is not done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are Marriages so mandatory ? more than the life of one ?? 

i wait my friend arrives we hang out ,, but question still runs in my head , really marriages are end of the life ??? really !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

It Never Was .. !!!!!!!!!

:( :(

Its not in my hand ,, 
its not ,, 
when i try n fly ,,
i am being called by 
those down ,,
waiting for me ,,
thinking ,, i would
take them ,,
with me ,,
make them fly.,,
will wait for them ,,
but i cant ,,'
m above the sky,,
flying high ,,
it hurts to .,,
look down ,,
see them suffering ,,
but its not ,,
in my hand ,,
it never Was ..