With Everything Have Nothing ... !!! [lonely housewife]

With Everything ,,,, Have Nothing ,......!!!!!!!

Lonely Road !! Lonely Life !!

 There is a hole in my heart that no one can fill, 
it seems like  i was born to make everyone happy , 
bring the best out of them , give give and give , 
cry the pain inside , let nothing come outside,
see the people cheer , see the children smile ,
colors and life , live and smile , 
walk out everyday , say hello to the world , 
let the world and life be in my arms clutched,
laugh loud and smile as if nothing wrong , 
and people say , "oh you're so strong" !!
i smile ,, but heart inside screams and cries ,, 

all i can do is sit and things that might have happened 

only when i come back home ,, 
only when am coming to myself ,, 
i know i know what is true,, 
the pain rise and i need to cry ,,, 
the man who loves me looks up to me , 
"hey whats wrong baby", the embrace weakens me !!
and that's when my baby comes running ,
"Mommy i missed you , where have you been"
the pain fades but heart skips in pain that is deep ,, 
i take her in my arms , "mommy is here baby girl"
lets eat and get back to your homework , 
the man beside me puts his arm on shoulder , 
says its okay dont loose now ,, 

we finish our food, and i sing to my baby ,, 
she sleeps in my lap , and i feel so clingy , 
i put her on her bed , stand in the balcony 
why is it has to be ,, why is it has to be ,, 
the man comes and kiss me lightly ,, 
dont think much ,, you need sleep , 
yes i nod ,, yes i need and you need it to ,, 
lights off ,, he makes me sleep ,, 
with his cuddles and kisses,, 
he sleeps by my side only ,, 
to make me realize am not lonely ,, 

he is sound asleep ,, and its past midnight ,, 
i lie awake , place seems so strange , 
everything was fine , but there was something aahhh 
time that my companion Mr. Pain arrives ,
tears flows ,, and throats aches , 
this is so painful , am i passing out 
i cry cry and cry ,, heart aches ,, 
the missing part in me ,, screams 
everything stops , but time keeps running ,
i fall asleep with tears in my eyes ,, 
with pain in my heart , 

"honey you are late , 
drop baby girl to her school too"
hand them their belongings ,, 
in the race with the time ,, 
kiss them good byee ,, and say come home soon ,, 
smile on my face ,, tears in my eyes ,, 
this is the life , this is the life :) 

may be world won't understand and 
somehow i don't care ,, 
lets get back to the work , 
i have family to look for , 
tear plot itself on my cheek again ,, 
and i smile ,,, to myself ,, 
with everything have nothing ,, 
this is My Life ........... !!!!!! 

This Is My Life ......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ღ Lost Diamond !!! ღ

why is he doing this :(

He : what r u doing here ? r u insane ? did u missed ur bus ?
She : yes i guess 
He : how stupid is that ,, common lets run to the next stop u'll catch it . 
She : Nooo i dont want to . 
He : Just shut up ,, [grabs her hand, and starts walking dragging her along ] i'll drop u on next stop , u'll meet ur group there , 
[she tries taking her hand back ,, but his grip is hard ] just walk n shut up .
She : [silent now , just walking with him ] have always been shut , haven't i ?
He : [turns back , looks at her ] now what ? just go home , and inform me when u reach .
She : i am not going home until n unless u r also heading back . 
He : [anger rush through him ] u know i am not going back , this is my home now . 
She : i came on the trip just to meet u , am not going back unless u r moving back .
He : u are not doing anything , u r just going back 
She : not without u . 
He : will u stop doing this , u r no one to me ,, u just cant command me , just go , Get lost . 
She : [with tears now ] yeah i am no one ,, simply no one ,, that is why u want me to be safe home , 
He : [real angry , grabs her hand tightly ]will u listen n ....
She : lemme complete Mr. all alone , yes i am no one to u , that is why u met me despite u were hiding from all , yes i am no one to u , thats y ur mother called me several times just to make sure if u r fine , [tears rolling down her cheek], yes i am no one to u thats why am the only person who knows where r u !!! well i was here just cause ur mom is crying from past 3 days , the moment u left she is broken [he starts shaking now ,, this is what he didnt wanted to hear something that makes him weak ] , ur dad isn't really showing that he cares or not, appearing that it doesnt matter but he asked me yesterday to beg u to come back ,, ur friends r missing u ,, m just here to get u back for Them not for me ,, cause yes i am no one to u [literally crying now]

am here to take u back 

He : am sorry ,, i dont mean that ,, [she crying crying badly ] listen please stop crying , i dont mean that , am sorry [he is also loosing now , he has tears ] 
She : Noo , let it be . i passed on the message to u, i better go now [sob] i'll leave ,, take care ,, n do think about those who matters to u . [turns away, n starts walking ,, she is weak ,, her tears r making her vision blurry ] 
He : Wait , please , i do care about them , and u too , am sorry i did not mean that , please . 
She : [Stops , doesnt turn back , slowly whispers] Byeee . please take care [keeps walking ]
He : Please Wait , dont leave me ! 
She : [turns back] u left us , we never did !!! [burst out crying ]
He : [comes Rushing towards her, hugs her ] look here , stop crying ,, am really sorry , i thought every one is selfish and doesn't want me , am sorry i shouldn't have left , am sorry dont cry please ,, u matter a lot ,, please dont cry . 
She : [controlling herself ] then ? now what ? drop me please , i need to go before i loose on my emotions . 
He : hmmm wait , let me get tissue for u . 
She : no let me go .
He : just 2 minutes please . 
She : okay ,, [unable to even speak that much ,, her throat is full of emotions ]
He : [after some 4 - 5 minutes he comes back] take this , [passes the tissue] wipe ur tears please ,, and lets go . 
She : [wipes tears ] whats that ? bag full of tissues ,, dont worry i wont cry now [sob]
He : Noo ,, u idiot , i wont let u cry anyways . lets go , m coming .
She : What , Really !! u kidding ? 
He : No , You came here just for me , i have hurt u all badly , am coming with u . 
She : ohhh so now i matter to u ! u forgot i was no one to u !! [tears , with anger ]
He : am sorry ,, i am really sorry ,, u r world to me. [holds her hand] lets go . 
She : [smiles ] i am telling u ,, lets go please , before i loose [smiles] 

after an hour in bus . 

Friend : where were u but ?? 
She : had lost my diamond. 
Friend : ohh u got it ?
She : yes [smiles ]
Friend : where is it ?
She : on its way ,, home ღ

Lets Go Home (: